Under Its Own Weight

There are moments when what flows out of us downward - exhaustion, loss, grief - does not disappear, but settles. Over time, it gathers, condenses, and becomes the very ground on which we later find ourselves standing. What once felt like depletion begins to reveal another quality: weight that holds rather than overwhelms.

This painting now stands opposite to the direction in which it was created. What emerged through a downward movement is now encountered as something rising. Within this reversal lies its central gesture: surrender does not have to mean collapse, and gravity does not necessarily lead to breaking. Sometimes, it is precisely what presses downward that allows a different kind of stability to form.

Under Its Own Weight speaks of a state in which resistance gives way to permeability. It describes a moment when we stop holding back, explaining, or attempting to regulate what moves through us. Like release in a metaphorical sense - when something leaves us - there is a lightening, not toward emptiness, but toward openness.

The work does not depict a landscape, but an inner process. It traces a threshold where what once flowed downward begins to function as support, and where the ground, saturated with experience, starts to behave like something alive - something that breathes.

In this sense, rising is not positioned as the opposite of gravity, but as its response. It is an adjustment rather than a refusal, a quiet reorientation rather than an ascent.

Like a body that opens, breathes, and carries its own weight at the same time - not in order to endure or break, but in order to remain present.

The work is not concerned with control, but with trust: with the idea that what once pressed us down can also become what carries us forward.

Without prior intention, the painting resolved itself as a diptych. This division suggests that such inner shifts cannot be held within a single field, but require space - a pause, a separation, a second breath - for the transformation to become visible.